my confession

2008-03-01T15:46:00.001+08:00

shifted to www.ohhwell.wordpress.com

2008-02-25T20:35:00.002+08:00

ever since i started working, my blog has also started to rot. i think now will be even worse as i'm busy working and studying. i'm planning to quit my job but at times, i feel like bearing with it.. still considering about quitting or not.
have been taking four general elective modules from sp. basically they are mathematical reasoning, programming logic and design, learning to learn and essential speaking skill. mathematical reasoning is a course that has nothing much got to do with maths. programming is like something that you learn in robotics but much more fun-er.. learning to learn is for you to pick up something to learn within 7 weeks.. as for essential speaking skill is like what we all hate.. ENGLISH ORAL!! learn how to read this and that word properly and clearly.. overall, this whole program is so fun not because of the modules but because of cluster 4.. so many guys and so little girls.. it's still not too bad having many boys in class as there's always so much lame shit coming out from them.. all you got to do is to sit down and the boys will serve you. wahaha..

anyway, i'll be away on wed for 3 days going to batam for my leadership training camp with all the other clusters.. so people, don't miss me.. i'll try to update more often when i got the time..

2008-01-31T18:25:00.001+08:00

i had gotten my Olevel result and i'm not really very happy for it.. i did better for prelim.. i'm surprise that i got a 3 for my humanities.. please laugh.. it's like i only write less than 20 sentences for the last qn for ss and i can score a B3.. well, i really want to know how cambridge markers mark our scripts and how we are moderate.. unfortunately, i didn't get a 1 for both my maths..

sch starts pretty early for me as i join the DPA and as expected, i'm the only girl in my course. for the whole engineering cluster, we only have THREE girls.. from what i know, i think i did the worst for Olevel as compared to them.. most of them are single digit pointer and the worst i heard so far was like 11? damn scary please..

i think poly life is so much different from sec sch life and the friends i make are also so different.. people are from different places and background.. (which i think they are mostly the rich people) they are the people who will take down notes just on the first lesson and even the homework has to be submitted the week after, they had already completed the work the next day.. most of them know how to play at least one music instrument and have some special talent.. feeling so little when i'm with them..

it is only today that i started talking to them and make some friends.. hopefully there's more girls coming to my course during the JAE.. pray hard!!

2008-01-21T18:37:00.000+08:00

results is out on thursday..

2007-12-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

my blog is rotting and one word to describe my life.. BUSY.. i have been busy working and earning money.. life's getting so boring now.. got money yet no time to spend.. got time to spend but no money.. one day off per week is too little for me.. everytime after my off day, i dread going to work and off day seem so short for me.. i only like the feeling when you see your bank account has many digits.. hahaha..

and to all my friends and family members out there, wish you guys an advance happy 2008.. (i'm might not blog so soon) enjoy the holidays yea..

2007-12-13T15:40:00.000+08:00

was working for only two days before going to penang.. when i was back from the trip, i quit that job.. so i was hunting for jobs for so many days.. went to town with eeqah and her sister to look for jobs.. in the end, i found one and i'm working for them now..

have been busy working for the past one week.. today is finally my off day.. i'm on afternoon shift this whole week and tomorrow i'm working full shift.. reach home late everyday and i have no energy to on the com to update about my life.. anyway i think i have no life besides working and earning money.. i miss shopping with friends and chilling at starbucks with eeqah.. it has been long since we sit down, drink our caramel, crap and laugh till we cramp..

since it's the holidays, some friends are working, some friends are rotting at home and some are enjoying their holidays.. it's hard to gather all the love ones together for some gossipping.. i think we got to wait till the day when the olevel result is release then i'll be able to meet everybody.. sad*

2007-12-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

pictures for penang trip..

DAY 1

in the bus on our way to second link

at a stopover having our first meal

first dinner at the seafood restaurant

all seniors netballers

E-family

DAY 2

early in the morning having breakfast

i'm not a morning person

at the Botanic garden

eeqah caught the monkeys in action

at some of the temple

DAY 3

room service order

pillow fight

DAY 4

the tall and cute netballer

she got the sweetest smile

E-family after match

seniors with the penang netballers

our last meal at penang

there's more pictures from teachers and elah so i'll upload again when i got them..

2007-11-28T14:58:00.000+08:00

i'm back from the netball 5D3N penang trip.. fun, tired and body ache so badly..

DAY 1
met in school early in the morning to set off to second link.. board another coach to penang.. e-family was known as the sleeping beauties as we were always be sleeping when we were on the coach.. wherever we go, we just sleep and dream.. the journey to penang was damn long and it's hard to sleep properly on the coach.. our first meal was at a stopover at don't know where.. the toilet was really smelly and we were able to smell it at the entrance so far away from the toilet.. at night when we reached penang, we had our first dinner at a seafood restaurant.. the utensils were really dirty and disgusting.. after dinner, we went to the pasar malam and it's worse than singapore's.. no proper light, nothing to shop and limited stalls.. went back to the hotel after everything.. finally a proper clean toilet.. shared room with e-family and we played old maid just to decide who's going to bath first and who's going to sleep on the single bed.. i'm already missing home on the first day..

DAY 2
woke up early and went to some temples and the chocolate factory.. waited for hours for the ride up to penang hill.. the ride up was really terrible.. we got to stand for like half an hour up but when we got up, we did not want to get down as the weather was so cool.. spent time taking pictures there and then down the hill again.. this time, we were rushing for seats.. it seems so much faster getting down as we got place to sit.. after that, we went to the biggest shopping mall at penang and i swear that northpoint or sun plaza is even better than it.. coach-ed back to hotel and it was an early night..

DAY 3
went to a school at penang to have some friendly matches with the people from sport school.. like always, we lost but it's the experience that counts.. had a match, got our packed lunch and we were sleeping at the court while waiting for our food to digest before starting another match.. went back to hotel early and it was our last night at the hotel.. called for room service and had pillows fight.. so much fun with e-family around..

DAY 4
another match with the same people and rushed back to hotel to check out.. headed to another shopping mall before going back to singapore.. the journey back was super fast.. we were like so many hours earlier that we got to stop for an hour to waste time.. if not we will be reaching singapore at 4.30am.. everything went smoothly and reached singapore at around 5am+..

DAY 5
cabbed home with zubaidah and slept till 2pm.. miss singapore, miss home, miss the clean toilet, miss the food and miss my bed so badly..

pictures will be up once i recieve them..

2007-11-22T15:51:00.000+08:00

CLASS CHALET ON THE 14 NOV 2007
spent most of my time on the phone to settle some lame shits.. other than talking on the phone, i was playing uno with xinn, jl and cn, playing da lao er with ben, xinn, cn, jk, meng and sherwin.. winner in loser out.. ben became the da lao er king as he can stay and play for so long while cn was in and out so many times.. haha.. besides playing, we were gossipping at the bbq pit and in the boys' room.. slept at around 5am+ and woke up at 7am+ due to some inconsiderate people..

15 NOV 2007
most of the people went cycling and some stayed at the room to sleep and to tv.. went to wild wild wet with jkai, both bens, sx, pris, wy, jl and cn while the rest remain sleeping, tv and get ready the bbq stuffs.. so much fun at wild wild wet.. poor ben and jkai as they got to "save" us from floating away and in the end, they got kicked or squeeze by us.. haha

the bbq at night was damn filling.. so many food and yet so little people.. out of so many teachers that we called, only one came.. many were forced to take some food home.. most of the people don't go home empty handed.. only xinn, cn, jl, yuki and elicia stayed for the last night.. we managed to have a bed each.. xinn and elicia left in the morning for the jc application while the rest of us helped to check out..

overall, the chalet was still alright.. i get to understand my classmates more.. hehe :D

2007-11-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK! I'M BACK!
FINALLY, IT'S THE END OF OLEVEL.. WAHAHA

i believe everyone is having fun and enjoying themselves now.. nothing win the feeling of having no exams.. hahaha.. shiok arr..

GRADUATION DAY ON THE 19 OCT 2007
had so much photo taking during graduation day.. so let's all the pictures do the talking..

FIRST WEEK OF OLEVEL
first day of olevel was amaths paper 1.. it was still manageable other than some stupid careless mistakes, the rest was totally fine.. it goes the same for amaths paper 2.. chemistry paper 2 was kinda easy but there's still one or two hard questions.. i think moderation will occur.. fourth paper was geography.. it was a disaster.. studied development, tourism and manufacturing and in the end, i went to do agriculture and tourism.. the mapwork was indeed very hard..

SECOND WEEK OF OLEVEL
english paper 1 and 2 were still okie but i didn't really compare alot for paper 1 situational writing and i think my composition was kinda LAME.. both emaths paper 1 and 2 were still alright as well.. not too bad..

THIRD WEEL OF OLEVEL
physics paper 2 was another disaster paper.. i swear it's really difficult and i could only flipped through the pages and stared at the questions..

FOURTH WEEK OF OLEVEL
social studies was the worst paper among all.. most of us blame on AK.. in fact all i think.. he's the one who told us that governance and international conflicts will sure come out and just because he didn't spot that rise and fall of venice will come out, he told us that it's out of syllabus and he didn't teach that chapter at all.. he said that we just got to memorize FIVE topics and we will be safe.. it doesn't seem to be this way.. i studied five and in the end, none of the topics that i studied came out.. population, singapore's development and rise and fall of venice came out.. WTF and SBQ was not contextualise.. i was totally lost and was cursing and swearing AK.. i hope he die..

FIFTH WEEK OF OLEVEL
last day of olevel.. chemistry paper 1 was manageable but with some careless mistakes again.. physics paper 1 was lack of time and i find it kinda hard.. whatever it is, olevel is over.. yeah three cheers..

i really miss all the shopping spree, boyfriend talks, laughter and fun.. :D

next coming up events:
- 4e1 class charlet
- netball penang trip
- start working

2007-10-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

had been really busy as Olevel is really approaching.. really don't have enough time to rest and study what's more play.. teachers from every single subjects just don't give it a damn as they just give other schools prelim papers and want us to complete them within a short period of time without realising that we are taking tonnes of papers from each subjects..

Olevel is just like a week plus more.. it's gonna be the very last lap for many of us.. cn and i will not be attending school tmr.. it's SDH (self declare holiday).. really tired and needed some rest before starting my engine again.. so it's five days of self study.. hopefully it's gonna be productive..

as graduating day gets nearer and nearer, i can really feel the sadness.. had been in the same class for four years and with some classmates for four years.. knowing tha each and everyone of us is going to leave for our teritary life, it's really saddening.. i will definately miss my classroom, teachers and friends.. though we will still be meeting but i think we will not be as close..

i love 4e1 forever..

2007-09-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

prelim results gotten back..

english- c6
combined humanities- c6
amaths- b3
chemistry- a2
emaths- a1
physics- a1
chinese- a1

l1r4- 11 and l1r5- 17

2007-09-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

went to cousin's wedding on saturaday.. woke up damn early and went to aunty's house as mum was helping to prepare while i sat at the sofa day dreaming.. the groom arrived at 9am+ and he really had a hard time before he can ever step into the house.. he got to go through so many tests.. went to the church for their wedding ceremony and it's kinda boring as we got to sing for them.. i only like the buffet part.. hahaha.. went home to sleep right after the ceremony..

at night, went to hilton for their wedding dinner.. had fun and was really full..

all the aunties and uncles

2007-09-23T01:44:00.000+08:00

this song has some meanings to me.. this song is the remix but i couldn't find the remix lyrics..

I ain't got no money
I ain't got no car to take you on a date
I can't even buy you flowers
But together we'll be the perfect soulmates
Talk to me girl

Oh, baby, it's alright now, you ain't gotta flaunt for me
If we go there, you can still touch my love, it's free
We can work without the perks just you and me
Thug it out 'til we get it right

Baby if you strip, you can get a tip'
Cause I like you just the way you are
(I'm about to strip and I want it quick
Can you handle me the way you are?)
I don't need the G's or the car keysBoy
I like you just the way you are
Let me see ya strip, you can get a tip'
Cause I like, I like, I like

I ain't got no Visa
I ain't got no Red American Express
We can't go nowhere exotic
It don't matter 'cause I'm the one that love you best
Talk to me girl

Oh, baby, it's alright now, you ain't gotta flaunt for me
If we go there, you can still touch my love, it's free
We can work without the perks just you and me
Thug it out 'til we get it right

Baby if you strip, you can get a tip'
Cause I like you just the way you are
(I'm about to strip and I want it quick
Can you handle me the way you are?)
I don't need the G's or the car keysBoy I like you just the way you are
Let me see ya strip, you can get a tip'
Cause I like you just the way you are

Baby girl, I don't got a huge ol' house I rent a room in a house
Listen baby girl, I ain't got a motorboat but I can float ya boat
So listen baby girl, once you get a dose of D.O.E. you gon' want some mo'
So listen baby girl, when I make it I want you back, want you back, yeah

2007-09-19T18:08:00.000+08:00

i got tagged by ivan again..

You have being tag for this game?

FAVOURITES
1) Colours : black & white
2) Food : home cooked food
3) Song : i always change my favourite songs
4) Day of the week : saturday

CURRENT
1) Mood : happy and excited
2) Taste : ---
3) Clothes : dress
4) time : 6.12pm
5) Surroundings : silent
6) Thoughts : ---

FIRST
1) Best frenz : elaine (lost contact with her after i transfered school)
2) Crush : a malay guy
3) Movie : don't remember
4) Lie : too many to remember
5) Music : don't remember

LAST so far
1) Drink : ice lemon tea
2) Car ride : cab
3) Movie : 1408 in the cinema and underdog at home
4) Call : mum

HAVE YOU EVER??
1) Dated ur best frenz guy : never
2) Broke the law: yes
3) Been on tv : yes, few years back with my brother..
4) Kissed sum1 u dont know : no of course

5 things you are wearing noow..
1) Clothes
2) Specs
3) Ear rings
No more already..

4 things you have done today
1) eat laska
2) check prelim papers
3) laugh at my friends
4) dance with my classmates

3 things you can hear right now
1) bus engine
2) noise from fan
3) people talking downstair

2 things you wanna do nw..
1) sleep
2) watch tv

1 thing you will do when you are bored..
1) sleep

5 ppl that I TAGGED
-anyone interested just tag yourself..

2007-09-14T18:15:00.001+08:00

it has been long since i last update this blog of mine..

prelim is finally over and i had been really busy with life and studies.. i hate exam, i really hate it.. exam= no sleep.. during exam period, the earliest i can go to bed was like 1am? the most i can sleep was like for 4hrs.. everyday sleeping so late, waking up so early for almost two weeks.. really irritating please..

for the very first time, i think that i'm going to do better for physics than for chemistry.. many people, like me, say that physcis paper is easier.. after studying the whole physcis textbook and make notes, i start to like physics.. i think physics is not that hard afterall..

i think it will also be my first time doing badly for amaths.. i hate integration larh.. was really careless for amaths paper.. hopefully i can get a B at least please..

2007-08-28T15:31:00.000+08:00

MONDAY
horrible english paper 1 and 2.. the paper 1 section B question was so damn unclear please.. write a report then write a proposal again.. in the end, they want proposal.. while paper 2 is difficult larh.. the passages were alright and easy to understand but is the questions which is mostly those answer in your own words type.. i think passage A i can only score 1mark larh..

went home straight after prelim to get back some sleep and i really had a bad monday night and tuesday morning..

slept at 10pm+, woke up at 12.30am trying to study SS.. then back to bed at 2am+.. woke up again at 3am+ and study all the way till 5am.. slept for an hour and went to school.. this type of sleep is so damn irritating larh.. i hate exam periods as i usually don't get my sleep..

today's emaths paper was managable, just that i complicate one question and in the end, can't solve it.. dumb larh.. SS questions were easy just that i didn't study which make it difficult for me.. i mixed up all the points for governance.. arghh!!

no school tmr and i got to really study my geography to pull up my grade for combined humanities..

2007-08-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

rather busy for the past whole week, don't really got the time to even switch on the com to update and i was really tired.. don't really have the mood to update as well..

went to watch dead silence right after school today with elicia, cn, jl, karen and xinn.. just like the previous time, cn, jl and elicia were screaming like hell while me, xinn and karen were really calm.. i think the movie is nice larh.. kinda worth watching to me.. after movie, we rushed back for AK's lesson which was real lame.. all of us were god damn tired larh and he was late for 20 mins please.. however, he makes the effort to rush back after his meeting which i think we should be thankful..

somehow, i feel that at this period of time, all the teachers had already do what they can for us.. they really had put in a lot of effort and spend their time on us for consultations.. like what AK said, he already reach the point when he don't know what to teach as he had already taught us everything that he knows.. i really appreciate all the teachers' effort..

i really feel that ms see puts in hell lots of effort on us, trying to make us do better for chinese.. her effort was paid off by my class o level result.. the highest number of distinctions.. i think she must be very proud and at the same time, felt happy for us.. though i hate all the homeworks that she gives us to the core but i think all that really help us in one way or another..

i think my class really disappoint ms wong.. she's a good and really nice teacher but whenever her lesson starts, it just make people wanna sleep.. i think that's because she speaks so softly that you hardly hear her.. from sec 3 until now, she has never lose her temper.. not even once to open her mouth to scold us when we didn't do our work.. i think that's the reason why our attitude towards physics really suck.. i felt really guilty towards her actually.. she spends all her saturadays on us and yet i didn't complete her work.. i felt really sorry larh..

as i grow, i learn to take things more positively and to appreciate everything around me, especially the people around me..

2007-08-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

i think all my recent posts really suck larh.. short and stupid..

-chong pang with dy for haircut
-northpoint to study but can't find available places and it's raining heavily
-train to sun plaza for alternative but no nice place as well
-went over to dy's house to study
-cook fried rice for me for dinner
-i'm a chemistry "teacher" as i teach him chem

i think that's too much for both..

i'm the first to try his cooking..

look at the mess..

2007-08-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

woke up in the afternoon, dy came over for com again.. i think all the lazy worms are in me as i just can't stop napping.. go over to marina square with dy and friends to catch the fireworks.. reached there at around 6pm+ and the fireworks start at 9pm+.. so we actually stood there and wait for hours for the 15mins fireworks.. but i think it's worth it.. headed back to yishun for supper.. it's on me as i lose a bet to dy.. whatever.. i'm tired again.. goodnight people..

2007-08-17T13:47:00.000+08:00

this week has been a slacky week for me larh.. only attended school for three days.. had my english oral on wednesday and i think i'm going to die.. during practice, JW said my reading had improve but need to work on picture and conversation.. russell is nice to help me for oral also.. i'm the first to be tested and i could hear my own voice shivering.. the topic is like so what the fuck.. environmental issues?? what's over is over.. shouldn't dwell on it for too long..
have been doing homework in the library for the past few days and i have yet to start on my revision.. kill yourself jol.. anyway, i think i'm kinda relieve after AK told us what will be coming out for SS prelim instead of me trying to memorise the whole of sec 3 and 4 textbook..

i'm happy-

2007-08-13T18:27:00.000+08:00

DOUBLE HAPPINESS

two pieces of good news..
i got a bunch of good friends who lie to me about my MT olevel result.. karen, elicia and xinn called me and told me to be prepared.. saying that i got a B4 and they all got A1 and asked if i wanna retake not.. so i told them of course i want to retake.. then elicia say i just pay them the money and not to the teachers as i got A1 also.. wahahaha.. i got an A1!! i'm happy..

the second good news is that i'm offered SP for my dpa.. so i'm assure a place in poly as long as i got 26 points and below.. i'm feeling so gay now.. gay as in happy..

2007-08-13T12:14:00.000+08:00

SATURADAY
rush hour 3 with dy, eric and ray at J8.. fucking hilarious especially the NG part.. go watch it if you have not.. damn worth it.. after movie, roamed around J8 and headed back to yishun to study with dy.. however, mac and kfc were full so we bought food back to my house.. as usual, dy was attracted to my com and it was just an excuse saying that he wanted to homework.. com till 9pm and he finally sat down with me to homework.. watched the ring at 10pm, mum treat us for supper and dy left at 12am++..

SUNDAY
went over to dy's for transformer.. i think they are cute larh.. pizzahut delivery again and homework.. completed some homework and headed to sun plaza for dinner.. food court was pack and we were sick of fast food.. in the end, we still choose mac for dinner.. we always ended up at mac for dinner..

i got myself sick on the eve of english Olevel oral.. well done, jol.. whole body was aching like nobody business.. mum cooked ling yang for me in the middle of the night for the fever to go off and i swear it tastes terribly horrible.. however, it did help to lower my temperature..

went to see the doctor today and got myself TWO days mc.. the doctor say i contracted some virus and if i don't remember wrongly, he always say that when i went to see him..

13 aug 2007
-english olevel oral
-mt olevel result was released
-dpa result
-first day of hungry ghost festival

dy shows this to me and i think it's kinda cool..

2007-08-10T16:45:00.000+08:00

some outdated pictures during national day celebration in school..

THURSDAY
homework in the afternoon and meet up with eeqah in the evening to marina.. i swear, it's damn crowded and pack.. people were pushing around, trying to get themselves a great spot to watch the fireworks.. we were walking and squeezing our way for so long and we finally gave up and headed to far east..

all we get to see is this..

town is so unlike town okie.. if u were to compare town and marina in proportion, i think it will be 1:52739.. it just seems kinda world end when you are at town.. went to a thai restaurant and it's really filling.. i love the tom yam soup larh.. after dinner, we just roamed around far east..

yummy!!

meet up with rs, eric, dy, ray, sh, mh, ivy and olivia to catch things up.. had great fun and i think we are closer after yesterday.. make a fool of ourselves and i realised something yesterday too.. in short, we spent quality time together..

2007-08-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

i got tagged by ivan so i shall just continue this game..

here it goes! Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs!

1) I will laugh like hell whenever i see scary or disgusting movies.

2) I look kinda ah lian on the outside but in fact, i'm not one.

3) I get frustrated rather easily and kinda hot-temper.

4) Can be very crazy and emo at times.

5) If you treat me well, i will treat you even better.

6) Love shaking while sitting down. (i had spread the disease to xinn)

7) My laughter is contagious. (proven by many of my friends)

8) Hate hypocrites and backstabbers and hope all of them die.

9) I will always listen to songs before i go to bed.

10) I got a bunch of good friends and i love them all.

people been tagged by me:
xinn
eeqah
elah
sherwin
boon ee
*nobody else in mind..

2007-08-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

TUESDAY
i seriously think AK is crazy more than ambitious.. wanted us to finish 11 questions in three days and so reluctant to go through them with us.. all he say is " any question? no question, we go on" or he will say "can do? okie, skip".. that's bloody irritating please.. he got so frustrated because of the triangle when he didn't even teach us how to read it.. yet he claimed that we did alot of the same type of questions.. what the hell is wrong with him? pms or what.. worse than pms i think..

watch alone with cn and elicia after SST at cwp.. fucking scary and worth it larh.. it's really a joke to hear your friends scream their lungs out in the threate.. i just can't stop laughing at them.. especially when cn can predict what will happen next and yet she got scared by the scene and scream.. like what jl and bird say "na qian xia zi ji".. i think you all should go watch it..

after movie, meet up at sun plaza mac for dinner.. i'm so sick of outside food now especially fast food.. i miss mum's cooking so damn much.. slack at delifrance and went home at 10+.. energy level real low..

national day celebration in school today.. a bored one to be exact.. singing session at a open space really suck and when the singing session is so short.. mrs sam is just a spoiler.. no fun at all.. played captain's ball with the teachers and won by 1 ball.. it's obvious that the teachers are letting us to win.. whatever.. as long as we have fun.. sound rather rude to the ambassador and felt really guilty about it.. thanks karen for the shorts..

met JW for oral practice and i think i'm gone.. hais limited days to O level oral and i'm doing so badly for oral.. slack in the canteen with xinn, while waiting for cn they all to finish their practical.. i went home while they went skating..

dy came over, yet again for the same reason.. COMPUTER.. pizzahut delivery for the both of us.. damn filling..

prelim is round the corner and i think i seriously need to start my revisions and find back my sense of urgency.. i hate wasting time okie.. i should have spend all the time wisely.. REGRET!! what's the point?

2007-08-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

change my blog skin.. all thanks to eeqah..

was planning to wake up early for homework.. however, i woke up at 12 noon.. slack around at home and completed my chemistry only.. dy arrived at 4+ and com for hours and here we go, off to northpoint.. thought of studying but in the end, after dinner, we went for a movie instead.. it's disturbia.. kinda nice larh..

Olevel MT result is releasing soon.. i think i got to retake it.. god damn it..
english olevel oral is approaching.. arghh havent look for JW and have not been practising.. i'm going to ruin it okie.. tell me that i'm going to die soon..

it's school tmr.. i really hate it man.. i love weekends even when i'm just wasting them..

contented-

2007-08-04T20:39:00.000+08:00

song recommended by xinn..
i got nothing to blog.. i should spend more time on homework as there are tonnes of them waiting for me especially GEOGRAPHY!!

i'm happy, i'm blessed and i'm contented..

2007-08-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY

during chinese lesson, ms see fainted in class which made the whole class really freak out.. after this incident, realised that russell is a gentleman.. so don't judge a book by its cover.. hope that ms see gets well soon.. she's a nice teacher.. of course, there are also other nice teachers like mrs goh and ms zuraidah.. ms zuraidah is my best FT ever.. she rocks big time.. l0l..
after SST, went home for dinner and meet up with dy at SP delifrance to homework.. in fact, we did nothing but just some lame chitting..

Nlevel prelim starts today and no morning run.. was sleeping during the first period.. last two periods free as ms see was mc.. chatting with cn, jl and xinn and had hell lots of laughter.. headed to mac for lunch with the same bunch of people.. was gossipping, laughing and simply enjoyed myself with cn and jl.. i really love the feeling to have friends around me.. i mean, who don't.. during SST, the teacher forgot that we got ss test and that's the greatest thing ever.. was doing maths instead of geog and my class got a lame bonding today.. some were laughing like crazy, some were entertaining like a clown and some simply just can't be bothered.. this type of bond is really rare and it's good.. though i didn't really do much as i was spending my time listening to mp3 and doing my maths, i really enjoyed seeing them go crazy together.. after school, dy came over for computer again.. spent few hours playing some lame games.. dinner together and headed home..

physics lesson tmr.. oh my goodness.. i haven't complete the homework!!

2007-08-01T21:16:00.000+08:00

MONDAY
zalifah was absent, so we missed both of our lights periods.. basically, i don't really remember what happened on monday.. skipped SST and went for DPA interview again at ngee ann.. this time, there were four who interview me and they are all friendly and good people.. hopefully i stand a chance regardless of what poly it is.. i just want my course..

TUESDAY
JW went to club rainbow so another lim came for SST and we did oral.. first time i found oral fun.. especially all the presentations by the guys.. freaking hilarious.. and i'm the suay one that day to be called to present as well.. mine wasn't as funny as theirs..

i skipped school today.. not pon but i'm sick for the past few days.. woke up at 12.30pm and it's really shiok.. spent 2hrs at polyclinics, gamed for almost 2hrs and went to meet up with xinn and bird for movie at CCK.. we watched simpsons and i swear it's really funny.. and there's an idiot in the threate who laughed like hell and his laughter is surely worse than mine.. bird went off after movie as i think he's in a rush.. xinn and i had ramen for dinner and it's damn filling.. were deciding if we should pierce as we both are kinda broke.. in the end, we did.. i pierced my 2nd and 3rd ear holes and she pierced her 2nd.. she was really suay as the "gun" was stuck at her ear.. lol we will have a common thing to do in class tomorrow which is to turn our ear stud..
and if you guys think that i'm a ah lian then you are so damn wrong.. i pierce not because i'm a ah lian okie but just that i find it nicer to have 3-2 than 2-1..

2007-07-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

SATURADAY
thought of waking up late but i woke up at 9am.. don't know why.. maybe i'm just too used to waking up early on saturaday.. dy came over at about 1pm to use com and we hit down to vivo city.. wonder around vivio and it's ben and jerry again.. headed down to marina square and thought of catching a movie before the fireworks but no good show.. were hanging around at marina square for few hours, waiting for the fireworks.. really worth waiting can.. the fireworks is so nice okie.. went back to sembawang and waited for him to go home and get changed before going to my house again.. movie marathon and surfing the net at my house..

woke me up early in the morning as he's going to bball and need me to open the door for him.. and in the end, it was raining so he stayed all the way till 8pm.. mum cooked lunch for us and KFC delivery for dinner.. all he do was just sitting on the chair and game and i'm homeworking.. my sunday's plan was cancelled again and this time i think there's some mis-communication..

i'm falling sick..

blessed-

2007-07-27T18:29:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY
went for the DPA interview at SP and i really saw all the typical singaporeans.. we were supposed to zap all the necessary certificates and results to support our documents and all of them brought one whole file of certificates.. it's really an eye-opener to see different type of people.. their certificates are not those "certificate of participation" but rather those achievement kind.. i was really stunned.. the interview went pretty well, i think.. not many girls there so i think i stand a chance, at least.. met an really cute lady who asked me if i had taken my attendance for FIVE times.. i really think she got short term memory..

3 rounds for today's morning run as xinn, eeqah and i were walking for the first round.. really really tired.. after school, mac with xinn and eeqah and rushed back to school for netball photo taking.. another good news.. i received a call from NP during SST.. i was short listed for NP and need to go for an interview again on monday which means i can skip SST again.. was really happy.. i think lucky star is with me..

once again, it's always short of elah..

they complete my life and i love them..

half, full, one third..

they rock..

cn draw my name..

mum is going back to work after staying at home for a month or so.. had been eating home cooked food for a month and i really love it.. but now, i really miss it.. home cooked food is always the nicest and i mean only when it cooked by mum..

i was indeed happy that we started talking again though we didn't talk much.. at least we started and we are no longer strangers.. 3 cheers!! hopefully sunday's plan works..

i think today is just a great day and tomorrow as well.. no lessons in the morning.. wahaha which means i don't have to rush all my homeworks by tonight and i can wake up late tmr.. and it's gonna be fireworks tmr..

sweet day-

2007-07-25T19:52:00.000+08:00

today PE lesson really suck larh.. was at the bball court playing volley ball which makes my arms hurt so much now.. really sleepy in class today.. i wonder why i'm always like this??

i had received the call from singapore poly and i have been short listed for DPA.. wahaha will be going to SP tomorrow for an interview.. hopefully, everything go well for me and i can skip SST and of course chemistry test tomorrow.. people, don't be jealous.. but i think CO won't let me go either.. i have to take the test sooner or later..

worrying-

2007-07-24T18:11:00.001+08:00

people around me are all making me very worry.. especially him and him..

first him:
prelim is around the corner and yet your attendance really suck big time.. aren't you worry about your own result? if you don't, i'm worrying like hell for you.. and what's the point of me worrying if you don't give a damn about it? useless isn't it? i really want to know what is exactly going on with you and what is the problem.. study hard please!!

second him:
i really understand what you are going through as i had been through it myself before.. i know what exactly you are feeling.. i understand the pain and all the unhappiness but all the decisions lies with the adults and there's nothing we as children can do or stop them.. all we can do is to accept all the facts and respect their decisions.. think it in a positive way.. maybe it is a better choice for them.. please don't be upset anymore and cheer up.. don't let it affects your studies.. i'll be there when you need me, just like how you have been there for me when i need you.. 24/7 for you.. i really hope that i can do something for you to cheer you up or just be by your side like how you always console me.. i'm willing to be your listening ear and let you cry on my shoulder..

once again, xinn pon school but this time, i think she got mc.. the empty seat really make me wanna sleep.. and the good thing is she will be back tomorrow..

worrying-

2007-07-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

i seriously think that yesterday's entry was indeed a crap.. i was half asleep when i was updating.. i fell asleep right after i updated so i didn't complete my amaths and physics homework for today's lessons..

was doing the undone amaths questions during amaths lesson.. thought of pon physics lesson as it's really bored to go for it but in the end, i dropped that idea.. it's really bad to pon ms wong's lesson as she uses her own free time to come back to school for the sake of us.. we should apperciate her instead.. after physics lesson, straight to yishun swimming complex with jl and cn.. it's damn damn fun to swim with them.. jl was teaching cn to swim and i was at the side laughing my ass off.. planned to sun tann but as usual, NO SUN and it's raining..

headed to my house for saw 1 with the two girls and xinn.. was laughing at the disgusting scene.. i think i had gone crazy.. it's great to watch movie together.. it will be saw 2 and 3 soon..

pool with dy, mh and rs at OCC after they left my house.. great and fun of course.. dinner at mac and sat there to chat with ts as well.. a pretty great saturaday isn't it?

2007-07-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

WEDNESDAY
xinn pon school so i'm alone for the whole day during lesson time.. really so bored when no one talks to me during lesson.. was practising oral during english and also chit chatting with jl, cn and karen.. was talking about everything.. pretty fun to chat with them as we really laugh our ass off..

THURSDAY
can't really remember what happened.. bitching non-stop during assembly with xinn, jl and cn.. laugh a lot during assembly and in class too..

and as for today, went to 768 to eat during lunch break and i think once again 18 of us went.. last week was KFC and this week we went to foodcourt.. it is purely coincidence.. during SST, most of us were listening to mp3 and sending songs.. pretty fun to have SST on friday..

after so many, i realised that money really cannot buy friendship.. i really cherish the friendship with eeqah, xinn, cn and jl.. they accompany me through ups and downs.. they are the one who makes me laugh till i cry..

after SST, went to dy's house to watch vacancy.. the show really suck big time.. people, don't waste your money and go watch it.. the ending is so what the hell.. i was still hoping for the exciting part then the end liao.. so dumb can..

we are so near and yet so far..

2007-07-17T19:53:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY
went over to dy's house to slack AGAIN.. haha it's for SCV..

MONDAY
JW wasn't in school and here we go, 3periods free.. chit chat for the whole 3periods with claris, karen and of course xinn.. time pass so quickly when it comes to chit chatting and it pass so slowly when it's lessons..

MT olevel listening went pretty well for me.. not to be greedy but a full marks please.. haha at least just to pull up my overall.. seriously don't wanna retake..

harry potter right after listening with elicia, karen, boon, claris, sx, and pris at cwp.. the show not bad larh.. just that i almost fell asleep for 3times.. haha maybe i'm just too tired.. went home, completed english comprehension and straight to bed as i can no longer tahan liao..

TUESDAY
nothing much happen today but had a good laugh during recess and after school.. by the way, english prelim oral is next week!!

2007-07-14T20:56:00.000+08:00

amaths lesson in the morning and fortunately physics lesson was cancelled.. lesson started late because ms zuraidah had something on and lesson ended early because we were well prepared for the lesson.. have some fun in our school toilet as we (jl, cn, xinn and me) realised some coincidence among us (only if you know what i'm referring to).. headed to admiralty foodcourt with them for breakfast cum lunch.. it's rare for the FOUR of us to have meals together other than in school.. we shared some claypots and were discussing to come to my house next saturaday to watch saw 1, 2, and 3..

went to yishun swimming complex to meet up with dy and mh.. they were already in the pool when i got there.. dy thought of sun tanning there but the sun wasn't strong enough to tann anyone of us.. i waste the trip of going there.. went to northpoint to wonder around and home..

night movie with bird bird was cancelled as he got tuition.. so i took my nap and was really great.. ever since school started, i really miss all my sleeps.. and now, i going to start on my homework, just in case i'm going out tmr..

2007-07-13T18:32:00.000+08:00

morning run: ran two rounds non-stop with eeqah and was really tired now.. especially after the captain's ball game on wednesday.. i'm having whole body aches now..

3 cheers for ms see.. she always release us early on friday because she says she always "eat" into our time in the past and so she's returning it to us now.. headed to KFC during lunch break with elicia, karen, wy, yukino, sx, pris, claris, iris, boon, jl and cn.. after we had settle down, russell, meng, sher, both bens, jk and xm came in.. so it's like 18 of us in KFC.. it's really fun to have lunch with part of the class.. it has been so long since i last eaten with the girls, gossip and have fun together.. sometimes, i really enjoy it as we really gossip about everything.. while walking back to school for SST, jl almost stepped onto a bird that can't fly.. the bird had injured itself.. she suggested for pushing the bird to the grass so that no one will kill the bird accidentally.. and some say that it's better for the bird to be on the pavement.. we actually stood under the hot sun, staring at the bird for like almost 10mins, deciding if we should move the bird.. i find it rather silly.. the bird will die somehow whether it's on the grass or the pavement because someone will just step on it unknowingly.. not trying to be cruel by not helping but just that we can't help the bird in anyway.. so we just left the bird there and went back to school..

saturaday is approaching.. though you asked me not to think about it but i think it is simply impossible.. you told me everything and now you want me to pretend as though i don't know anything.. what the hell? if that's the case, i really rather not to know.. i know it's not your fault either as you are just being honest with me and that's good as at least you didn't plan to keep it from me.. but don't you think you are kinda too honest? whatever it is, i'm trying to keep myself occupy tmr so that i won't have any free time to think about it.. hopefully this time i'm complicating simple problems.. i really wish to..

2007-07-12T18:51:00.000+08:00

it's two weeks!!

if you guys have noticed it, i had shorten my wishlist and lian ou ren had been taken out.. i think it's not that i no longer wanted it but more of like i can never have it.. so i should as well take it out from my wishlist.. and and and, it's not the right time to ask for lian ou ren also..

class photo-taking today was pretty fun.. i think that will be our last class photo?

consulted ms wong and ms zuraidah regarding the DPA and the courses to choose.. different teachers give me difficult opinions.. anyway, i already have the 3 course in mind, just that i don't know how to rank them.. shall do some research on the courses..

bad news: 99.9% that there will be SST tmr.. which means, no early dismissal from ms see.. no matter how early she dismisses us, we will still have to stay till 4.30pm.. arghh!! there goes my friday entertainment..

2007-07-11T20:27:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired recently.. no matter how early i sleep or how long i sleep, i'm still very sleepy in class and when i got home.. i really don't know the reasons.. catch things up with ning during reading period.. though we are seeing each other in school everyday but we don't really have the chance to talk privately.. ever since she changed place with xinn, we had not share our secrets.. it's really nice sometimes to share secrets and know that the person will keep it.. used to tell her a lot but now i told xinn almost everything as she's sitting beside me.. both of them can be trusted anyway..

we had captain's ball game in the hall during PE today.. everyweek, i'll be saying that i do not want to perspire but in the end, i always perspire like hell.. today was fun though my group lost.. group members really rock big time.. sher, jk, elicia, wy, cn, bl and many others who i can't remember.. really had fun and kinda distress??

AK was encouraging us to apply for DPA and i'm considerating it now.. it's very troublesome to apply but somehow guarantee me a place in poly even before taking "O".. i'm still thinking which course to apply and which poly..

after SST, went for a mini certificate of appreciation presentation.. stepped down from netball and escaped from all the torture.. qouted from mdm koh, "it's not about winning but more of the friendship.." i totally agree with this.. i had made really good friends in netball.. if not because of netball, i wouldn't have know eeqah and esah and be so close with them.. it's also because of netball that we have E-FAMILY.. i really cherish every single one of them from E-FAMILY..

i think i can get affected easily, be it studies or relationship.. until now, you still affect me a lot.. though it's wrong to feel this way but i really don't know.. is the wave in the afternoon meant for me? seriously speaking, it's bothering me now.. though i see no reasons in me to bother over a wave but it's really surprise to see you waving to me after such a long time.. the smile on your face and that wave still keep appearing in my mind now.. out of a sudden, we become so strangers which is what i'm most afraid of.. i'm not avoiding you at all but just that i got nothing to talk to you.. i feel kinda weird to treat you like how i treat you in the past.. it's no longer the same isn't it? i think you feel the same way as i do right? i really want to go back to how we are in the past and stop all this strangers-ness between us.. can we? it feels so weird to walk pass each other without saying "Hi" or anything.. i mean, it's not like us at all.. i seriously want it to stop please..

i love you x32847

2007-07-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

SATURADAY
earth day!! (whatever you call it)
morning had physics lesson and as usual, it's always boring.. straight home right after lesson and meet up with eeqah to vivo city.. we wore green and our objectives were to slack and homeworking there but end up slacking and shopping.. bought a black pants at mango.. had ben and jerry ice cream with her and slack all the way at the roof top.. cam-whoring and all our boy-friends talks were awesome.. i simply love her as she really brighten up my day..
reached home at 10+ and watch live earth.. mac delivery with mum at midnight.. wahahaha..

SUNDAY
got a chance to meet up with dy, rs, mh, ray, eric and a friend of dy.. pool at OCC for like 5hours.. kept running to the toilet to clear my bladder.. luck was with me yesterday as i won a lot of games.. wahahaha..

MONDAY
was freaking tired despite sleeping early.. really fell asleep during chinese lesson.. i really think she's my sleeping pill if you know who i'm referring to.. and xinn says he's my ecstasy, again if you know who i'm referring to..

was damn pissed off because of mum.. hope she understands me a little more..

hope that everything will be fine on saturaday and it's all about trusting one another.. i shouldn't get affected at all, should i? should just treat it as i don't know anything about it as i didn't see it with my own eyes.. maybe i'll feel better this way..
TRUST!!

i want a balance lifestyle if you know what i mean.. don't wanna end up like some people and losing friends in the end.. i cherish all my friends especially my cliques.. you guys know who you are.. stop me if i go overboard please and of course i'll learn to control as well..

i love you x32847

2007-07-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

shall update tmr when i'm less tired and when i got more time..
goodnight people..

2007-07-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

so long didn't blog liao as i was so busy with school and so tired.. sleep doesn't seem to be enough for me..

TUESDAY
a dumbness day.. i packed my bag according to monday's time-table.. the books that i brought were not used and the books needed, i did not bring.. but the lucky thing was that i left most of my books in school.. i escaped from CO's scolding because of chem fys..

WEDNESDAY
PE was so damn fun other than the running part.. we were forced to run with the 2.4km failures and xinn, chengning, jialei and many of us just keep running across crescent like some dumb-ass.. happened to see hafiz and ben liu playing at the playground.. what ST had done to me is so damn disgusting please.. but he's just like another TT..

THURSDAY
nothing much happened but just that i attended GG's lesson.. find him okie.. maybe that's the first lesson with him so he didn't show his true colour.. and and and, mrs goh had gave birth to a baby girl.. wahahahah..

FRIDAY
NO SST!!
last day of early dismissal.. ms see dismiss us early again.. went home straight from school and napped but didn't nap long..

was browsing sony ericson website and i see many many phones that i like.. all coming soon..
i was actually hoping for weekends to come and thought that more time can be spent together with you but you are a busy person.. anyway, tmr will be a great day as i'll be spending my time with eeqah..

2007-07-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

SATURADAY
slack at dy's house, watching SCV and eat my mos burger..

SUNDAY
went to starbucks to chill with eeqah and some homeworking.. it has been quite some time since we been there.. shop around MS and it's always the same old thing.. sick of it.. headed to cwp and we got ourselves the same white wallet.. and she finally got her heart watch.. some fun at cold storage with her.. we didn't really take a proper picture of us today.. it will be a history.. but anyway, i love her lots..

tmr onwards, school will ends at 4.30pm everyday.. it's EVERYDAY okie.. no more early dismissal including friday.. WTF.. i hate this!!

2007-06-29T22:35:00.000+08:00

only when u going to lose something or when u had lost it, u will start to appreciate it.. i've seen this kind of situation lots of time.. be it in love, school, friends or family..
what is the point of appreciating someone after u had broken up?
just like now, when exams are round the corner, and is graduating real soon, i start to appreciate my teachers.. i like them all now when in the past i hate some to the core.. somehow, i find JW alright now.. her comprehensions did work for me.. although she loves praising herself but other than that, she's okie.. zuraidah has always been good.. she's a wonderful and caring teacher larh.. only this year, after mdm wong's incident, i start to like ms see.. and today, we got early dismissal from ms see..
only when i'm graduating, then i found my true friends.. just like in primary school.. but when we were graduated, we lost contact.. things are always like this..
at home, i will never appreciate what mum is doing for me.. only when i have to do it myself, i will realise that how good it is when mum is around..
learn to love and care for the people around me.. and also to appreciate..
it's gonna be a long weekends.. shall see how i waste it again!!

2007-06-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

i think i kinda ruined my MT oral.. i simply can't pronounce the word 惺忪 (but i got to know it after my oral) and i'm so not fluent for that whole paragraph.. the rest of the paragraphs were alright.. as for conversation, still okie but i don't know what the examiners think about it.. hope that they are kind enough to make me score..

anyway, other than that, i'm a happy girl now.. wahahahah..

today onwards, OC is taking us for chemistry.. find him alright but he talks a little too fast.. however, i will still miss mrs goh.. she's still the cutest and the best chemistry teacher..

i'm happy!!

2007-06-26T18:22:00.000+08:00

second day of school, but still feeling fucking lethargic.. slept at 9+ yesterday but today, still feeling freaking tired.. god knows why okie.. i'm starting to like english periods now as it will be my gossipping and chatting time with xinn.. hahaha.. been chatting non-stop during english lesson when JW go through the comprehension.. still adapting to school life as it's a "long" holidays.. tmr will have our first PE lesson of term 3 and height and weight for goodness sake.. i doubt i grow any taller.. (been laughing at joanne too much)

anyway, things have been better for me today.. more light hearted then yesterday.. though the problem has not been solve but somehow i think the situation is improving..

i think we are like strangers now.. no talking at all.. i mean not even a smile from you.. hais WHATEVER!! do i really mean it??

2007-06-25T14:59:00.000+08:00

not in the mood to blog and was pretty busy and tired for the past few days..

SATURADAY
went to gym with eeqah.. i think she's crazy as she kept doing the legs exercise as though she can slim down in a day.. i was laughing my ass off when she complain her legs were painful when she climbed the stairs after that..
after lunch, headed to my house for some washed-up and here we go, to bugis.. bought a big black bag and she bought her watch and a bag too.. went to town, hoping to get some cheap deals.. but bought nothing there..

we are the black girls with big black bags!!

went to dy's house for 200 pounds beauty and slack..

SUNDAY
was trying hard to complete all my homework and i only managed to complete combined humanities, english and chemistry.. the rest were left untouch.. wasted my holidays and this really suck big time.. dy came to use lappy at my house while i'm struggling with my homework.. homework all the way till 2am..

MONDAY
feeling so shag in school today but i'm happy to see my friends.. chatting with xinn about all my problems and i really think i'm problematic.. xinn and i were extremely happy when we heard the bell just now as it is time to go home.. our reactions were really funny..

i'm feeling so WTF right now.. is there any machine in this world whereby it can help people to check their feelings?? i need a check on my feelings badly.. i really don't know how to explain it and it's making me so miserable.. can't you just let go?? it is all because of you that makes me feel so sucky.. it will only make me hate you more.. please understand what i'm going through..
somehow i regretted on my decision on saturaday night.. 2days of sweetness become many days of saddness.. i think people are all selfish creatures as they only think for themselves but not others.. i seriously think that time won't help me at all..
5mins ago, everything seem so perfectly alright and 5mins later, it seems like the world is ending for me..
you know what i want and i know you can't.. so you choose to sacrifice me instead..
i was badly hurt once again.. do you know that my heart was bleeding?

2007-06-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

not in the mood to blog..
feeling so tired, sad, surprise, happy and irritating this few days..
slacking with eeqah tmr..
shall have some fun..

2007-06-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

feeling freaking mess up now..
i took the courage to walk the biggest step but i was somehow being abandon..
i took the initiative to talk to you and what i get in return was like shit..
all i have been doing was actually kinda stupid if you wanna say it..
whatever i have been doing is actually a waste of my time?
isn't my blog title clear enough for myself?
part of loving is learning to let go..
so shouldn't i just let go and forget all those shit?
i know i really sound contradicting as i always am..
so get use to it..
maybe i should say what eeqah say is true..
i'm always looking for something exciting when i'm bored so i think i had created some troubles just like the day before MT olevel?
am i regret for what i had done on the eve of MT olevel?
sometimes i do and sometimes when i think back, i think it is great that i had done it..
so i really don't know if i truly regret..
though i'm clear that everything need time, and i think time will not help me at all..
simply because olevel is our obstruction..
or maybe i should say not only olevel but somehow it is only a one sided love..
whatever rubbish i am going through, i can simply conclude that you won't understand and you won't know..
the smile that i put on my face will just hide everything when i see you..
thinking of you have become my habit..
i can just say, it is hard to understand all these..
i can't even understand it..

2007-06-18T18:01:00.000+08:00

i didn't sleep yesterday and was watching movie till 5.45am before i get ready to sentosa..
the plan was to meet at 6.30 and take train there..
however, eric, ray and dy were late and when they reached, eric wanted to eat breakfast first and we were taking bus instead of train..
so at 7+, we were still at yishun..
the journey was indeed very slow..
damn that stupid bus that made us half dead when we reached habour front..
we were sun tanning, playing with water and some went cycling..
me and dy were hoping to get tann so we applied some sun tann lotion but now only my face is tann when i didn't apply any lotion..
WTF.. the rest of my body remains the same colour..
we were all dropped dead when on the way back..
all were sleeping like a log in the train..

i seriously need to get some sleep now..
i think i'm really blur now as i just fell from my chair..
no pictures as i'm tired and lazy to upload..

2007-06-18T04:17:00.000+08:00

it is now 4.17am and having to wake up at 5.45am, i'm still not on my bed yet..
i'm having sleepless nights for so many days already and i really hope that i can have a proper sleep..
thoughts are running in my mind right now..
i really don't understand what is love..
why do people get hurt when they truly love someone?
it is so unfair isn't it?
shouldn't love be a win-win situation?
perhaps i'm still too young to even talk about love..
i shall just be concentrating on my studies..
hopefully i can do it..
seriously, i think i need to cry..
as i have been wasting my time when i can actually use them for homework and revision..
prelim is so near and i'm still having that kind of slacking mood..
where the hell is my sense of urgency?

2007-06-17T23:05:00.000+08:00

happy father's day!!

been slacking at home for two days..
first time find being at home good..
yesterday, a whole day spent with television..
korea series, taiwan series, movie and some entertainment shows at night..
today, again with my korea series and movie..

and i have only exactly one week left with my holidays to finish up all my homework..
time really flies man..
i haven't had ENOUGH!!

i hoping to see you soon though i don't want school reopen..
where the hell are you?
you left without saying a word..
WHATEVER!!

2007-06-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

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this 100 "i miss you" will still be too little to describe how much i truly miss you..

2007-06-14T23:34:00.001+08:00

slept at 5am yesterday because i napped too much in the afternoon..
woke up at 11am because was planning to meet rs at cwp..
however, everything was cancelled..
so i went to amk hub by myself to shop around..
bought 3 tops.. i love GSS!!
meet dy at 5.30pm and headed to town..
was shopping for his friend's birthday present..
end up, got myself another two sweaters..
walk from far east to cineleisure to watch fantastic four..
nice, cool and funny..
johnny is hot okie and ben is cute.. hahaha..

my legs are very tired now and i think it is time to hit back to my homework again.. so many plans going on next week so i think i shall finish my homework asap!! i'm like only done with geography, emaths paper1 and compre set 19.. so many more to go.. arghh!! no time for revision..

2007-06-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

more pictures from xinn!!

me and xinn

facilitators: roderick and jelena

my good buddy

2007-06-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

back from my sentosa camp and it's really FUN!!
the money is sort of worth it actually..

DAY 1
- talk on sharks
- buffet dinner
- tour around underwater world
(we actually got the chance to "molest" the fishes and sting rays as there is a touch pool there.. i managed to "molest" the sting rays.. wahahah)
- ocean quiz
(second in position)
- buffet supper
- video on how marine lifes hunt for food
- wash up
- free time/ games/ ghost stories telling by facilitator
- lights off at 1am

my first camp which lights off so late.. haha we actually slept inside underwater world with all the sharks, sting rays and fishes.. it is so impossible to sleep as i simply wouldn't bear to close my eyes.. lying down, seeing all the fishes swimming is so beautiful.. and with all the noises produced by the juniors and all the walking about, it is hard to fall asleep..

DAY 2
- rise and shine
- buffet breakfast
- free time
- headed to dolphin lagoon
- interaction with dolphin
- pack up and home

xinn, elah and i kept going rounds the underwater world whenever we got our free time as it is simply so nice and relax seeing the fishes swim.. the dolphins are so cute and clever.. they listen to instructions and we get to touch the dolphin as well.. i'm starting to miss the underwater world already especially my sleeping group.. it should be like a 3days 2nights camp or more rather than only 2days 1night..

pictures time!!

on our way to sentosa

reached

buffet dinner

peacock wants to join us for dinner

nice view behind us

she's cute and funny

tickets

japanese giant spider crab

jelly fishes

3-D sharks

big fat fish

my quiz group

star fish

another fat fish

buffet supper

my sleeping group

two dumb ass

somehow looks like condom to me

buffet breakfast

a school of fish

sting ray

pink dolphin

group photo

more pictures with xinn and miss zuraidah..

class outing today at east coast and i didn't go.. went to cut my hair after camp and rs called me out for pool.. went to pool at OCC and was more and more lethargic so headed home..

2007-06-10T16:28:00.000+08:00

feeling kind of confuse now because of what happened on friday and yesterday..
should i just take it as all bullshit or crap or even rubbish?
am i complicating simple problem again?
i seriously don't see the reason why should i be bothered with this since i already know the answer very clearly..
arghh!! feeling all fucky..
what over is over isn't it?
shouldn't i just move on and not be troubled by the past?
a few messages can make me so confuse..

going for sentosa camp tmr..
people, don't miss me.. hahaha
hope that it will be fun and make me forget all the unhappy things in my mind now..

2007-06-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

today's lessons are still okie..
SS was fast..
something is wrong with AK as his mood is rather good recently..
haha so unlike him..
was chit chatting throughout english lesson while JW wanted us to practice oral..
was crapping about all sorts of things especially audition..
after school went to meet huda..
fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, FUCK!!
huda is such a _ _ _ _ _.
she's an ass okie..
who says we want to go to sentosa because we are interested in the dolphins?
don't make any guesses okie..
though we agreed to pay by cash but u didn't inform us how much was it until yesterday..
and u think it is funny not to give us the programme list and yet u want us to pay $50 for the programme?
that's totally bullshit..
don't vent your anger at all, u asshole..
for goodness sake, i no longer look forward to the trip okie..
seriously regretted asking her for the trip..
FUCK!
went to dy's house to slack as we planned to go for a run together..
the weather was bloody hot so plan to run in the evening..
fell asleep while watching television..
freaking tired after so many sleepless nights..
ran 2km non-stop and my legs already cannot take it..
that stupid dy suggested climbing up the stairs but i took the lift instead..
haha he reached before i do..
he is as fast as the lift man.. whoa
slack again then headed to sun plaza to have dinner with rs and him..

feeling quite happy today other than the huda incident..
i miss you x131121

2007-06-06T22:18:00.000+08:00

went to LJS to "study" with dy..
it is always uneffective studying with him..
however there's always fun larh..
his jokes and his crappy-ness..
do revision papers for less than 2hrs and i decided to go for a walk..
walked around northpoint and he bought a nike bball shorts for himself..
then headed to the pasar malam near my house..
bought all the snacks and drinks and sat down to eat..
yet i say i want to lose weight.. haha
he's trying to lose weight too but we both are eating supper together..
so we both are going for a run together tmr after lesson.. hahahaha
shall see how long we can run and how much fats we burn..

actually e-family will be meeting ms huda concerning the sentosa trip..
we all are still deciding whether we want to go or not..
but xinn says huda had already booked the tickets and now it is a must to go..
each of us will have to pay a total of $50++ in cash..
WTF man.. it's like we haven't get to know the detail and she just zhi zuo zhu zhang go book everything..
at first, she says we only need to find 5 people and now she says 10 people..
if not, each of us will have to pay EXTRA..
goddamnit.. i already got a big hole in my pocket and now she's making it bigger..
tmr we will get to meet her and talk to her about the trip..
yet i still look forward to the trip..
and now, not at all please..

i'm damn tired now but i still have to sweep the floor and wash my uniform.. arghh!!
i miss my dream and i miss him..
everything seems normal today which i find it funny..
whatever it is, i still miss him..

2007-06-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

i'm dog tired.. i'm beat.. i'm drained.. but but but i'm HAPPY..
i'm not going to tell you why..
okie 2hrs of humanities was fast today..
i actually expected AK to scold us for our bad result, however he didn't and he looked perfectly normal..
that's weird and so unexpected..
maybe he knew that the papers were tough..
wahaha.. but who cares about it now since the marks had already been keyed in..
so i miss english lesson for some reasons and xinn was complaining about it..
and that was pretty funny to see her complaining..
she was alone during english lesson..
i know she miss me.. hahaha
and that's make us talk, joke and laugh a lot during maths lesson..
enjoy sitting with her..

i somehow hurt my ankle don't know when..
and now it hurts when i'm trying to rotate it..

holidays are passing so quickly each day and i haven't start on my revision..
i think i shall cry as i know i will continue to slack..
still not in the mood to study yet..

i seriously want to lose weight for goodness sake..
i have been eating only one meal per day since don't know when but i'm not losing weight..
WTF.. trying to get my ass off the chair and do some exercise..
it has been so long since i perspire..
this makes me miss all the netball training that i used to have..
all the runs and games..

i'm exultant!!

2007-06-05T23:18:00.001+08:00

it's already more than ONE week..
we have not talk for a week and yet nothing is done..
is this how we going to end?
i thought you say we won't be affected?
it is all a lie..
i know somehow we will be affected..
i know it is unfair if i'm waiting for you to have any action as i need to do something about it also..
but i really don't have the courage to do anything..
all i can do is to wait and wait..
i know you will not read this and i really want to tell you that
I MISS YOU..

2007-06-05T00:57:00.000+08:00

it is so much so a disaster for me this morning and i think i shouldn't elaborate it here..
e-family will know and understand..
however, it is so much sweeter in the afternoon..
i mean the sweetest..
i FINALLY got my e-family outing..
i'm so happy and we had soooooo much fun right?
a east coast pinic, cycling, skating and cam whoring all the way..
the food were all delicious and of course the coffee bean slacking was great too..
other than the long journey, the rest were simply AWESOME!!
the journey nearly kills me..
lastly, i'm not tanned!!
and i shall let the pictures do the talking..

and that's what i call one family

i love them all to the core okie..
nobody can replace them in my heart..

to E-FAMILY:
sorry to keep you guys waiting for two hours and 45 minutes..

happy birthday xinn!!

2007-06-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

happy birthday eeqah!!

spend a total of $103 for a trip to cwp..
WTF..
just for all the birthday presents and stuffs..
i got a hole in my pocket..
a big hole i think..
seriously in need of money now..
holidays make me broke and my pimples are all poping out for goodness sake..
arghh!!
i'm still so sick..
flu+cough..
recover pls!!

2007-06-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling sick..
i'm still eating deep fried, grill and chocolate despite my bad cough..
woke up in the afternoon and was slacking..
i'm so lazy to start on homework and yet i'm saying i'm going to work my ass off during the holidays..
i think that's rubbish..
when finally gonna start on homework, i fell asleep..
and now, i'm feeling sleepy again though i just wake up and i'm having a headache now..
arghh!!
one week of holiday soon ended and nothing is done..
WTF..
no sense of urgency at all..
不见棺材不掉泪 is the best description now..

2007-06-02T02:01:00.000+08:00

it is now 2am and i'm not asleep yet..
i think most people were already in their dreams including him..
i'm tired but simply just can't fall asleep..
too many thoughts running in my mind..

it has been five days since we have a proper conversation..
i miss you and i really do..
though it seems like everything is normal but to me, it doesn't seem to be..
somehow or rather, something is wrong somewhere..
i really miss your smile and simply everything..

2007-06-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

another day in hell..
2hours and 45minutes of physics..
actually it is suppose to be only 2hours but she dragged and we were suffering..
the lesson was so dry, she sucks all the water in us and i'm dehydrating..
that's a weird description..
planned to play audition with classmates once reached home but i fell asleep while waiting for them to come online..
nap for 3hrs and go for a swim..
rushed home as promise karen to play audition at 8pm..

can't sleep yesterday so went to youtube to watch mr bean..
real funny man.. haha
i think mr bean can also cure my emo-ness other than him..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNBi2PATwqc
i think this is funny..

happy birthday elah!!

sorry for the beating in class.. i know i'm violent.. haha happy sweet 16 yea.. hope to see you on monday..

2007-05-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

happy birthday wanyi!!

just came back from baby glenda's first birthday party..
catch things up with joanne..
little cousins are afraid to take pictures with me..
nothing much happen..

2007-05-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

dinner with dy, cj and rs at marina square was really great..
they never fail to make me smile and of course laugh..
i love them all..
had our dinner at thai express and went for pool after that..
played two and won one..
headed home after that as i was really tired after so many sleepless nights..

i keep thinking of you even though i'm having fun.. i'm starting to miss you.. or should i say, i start to miss you long ago..

IT'S PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!

2007-05-30T15:31:00.001+08:00

mood was sucky..
didn't talk much in sch in the morning..
i think i talk less than 10 completed sentences..
really don't feel like talking, i'm tired and was trying to focus..
2hrs of phy was indeed like hell..
there's another 2hrs of phy on friday..
arghh!! will be in hell again on friday..
see you soon, hell..

i'm not alright yet, not at all fine..
went to happytreefriends to watch some clips hoping that i will laugh or cheer up but i failed..
meeting dy, cj and maybe rs tonight for dinner..
hopefully they can cheer me up..
i'm emo!!
all i need is time and more time to get back to normal..

2007-05-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

time passes so slowly for me nowadays..
i really don't know why..
i think i really need some time to cool myself down and think through everything that had happened recently..
it really affected me badly..
i think only you can cure it now but i'm sure you don't even know what i'm going through..
so i can only depend on myself now..
all by my own, trying to get back to normal again..
i'm tired of all this and i really admire those who can manage it so well..
how i hope i can be like them, able to cope with it..
arghh feel so fuck up now.. @#$%^&*
no words in human language can describe how i feel now..
i need some entertainment pls!!
this is seriously worse than dying okie..
do you understand me?
OMFG

and i think i had enough disturbing my friends over the same problem again and again..
i seriously need to thanks xinn, eeqah and sher for being there for me and hear me rant..
i shall learn to control from now on..
stay focus and concentrate pls!!

2007-05-29T16:24:00.001+08:00

lesson in the morning was still alright other than the amount of homework that i got.. went to the newly opened cafe in our school during recess break.. wahahaha the sandwich is nice but not the ice chocolate.. anyway, it's good to have a cafe in sch as it gives students an alternating choice..

my heart sank.. i'm starting to feel the coldness within me and i'm getting weaker without you by my side. how can you be so cruel to left me aside? i need you and i really do. the image of you in my mind is getting unclear and that's not what i want. what can i do to change the situation? i really got no idea of what to do. i don't want to avoid any longer as it will only make matter worse. i'm trying to face it and hopefully it works. one sided love is always so miserable. when can i have your love too? i love you for who you are. your every touch, every word you say and everything you do. but why am i not given a chance? should i just give up and let it go? forget the past and move on? I DON'T KNOW!! i had gone crazy for you and tears roll down my cheeks unknowingly.. sigh*

2007-05-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

was watching campus superstar just now.. really lmao man.. haha some really don't want face and went to the audition to throw away their face.. wahaha i wonder what give them all the courage? i need some too but not for campus superstar but... should not elaborate anymore..

how can i learn to control myself to stop thinking of you? you keep appearing in my mind and make me miss you so much.. can u stop doing that? i really miss the feeling of being with you.. i'm feeling so weak now.. i need the energy from u.. i need some ai de li liang.. i can no longer take it..
you are less than three

2007-05-28T14:02:00.000+08:00

MT olevel is over and the paper is really tough.. my gastric is trying to kill me in the middle of the paper.. plenty of thoughts were running in my mind after completing the paper.. was sitting there staring into space and thinking of what i have been doing is right or wrong and stuffs.. still feeling very messy even though the answer was clear enough.. i don't know why am i still feeling so sucky..
my story with you had ended yesterday, but i think now is the beginning of a new chapter.. though it is not what i actually wanted it to be, however it is also something that i didn't expect it to be which turn out pretty well.. i think i will need some time to adapt to the new changes between us.. thanks for the reply as it really make me feel better and clearer.. i'm glad that i do not need to bear any of the consequences and you will always be less than three..

2007-05-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling a total mess now.. really messy inside me.. it's like all my emotions are playing catching.. i mean like tmr is MT olevel, shouldn't i abandon all other things except my chinese notes and stuffs? why am i like slapping my own face on MT paper eve? omfg.. i seriously don't know how i feel.. at this moment i feel great about it and at the next moment, i feel so sucky.. though at first, i indeed felt regret, however, i feel that it isn't a bad thing after all.. but i still feel sucky.. CONTRADICTING!! i really hope that i will become cinderella one day and meet my prince charming... arghh!! shouldn't i be concentrating on my studies? understand my mood now? i wonder what am i typing.. this is simply too confusing..
i seriously hope that i got a chance though i mention that you don't have to do anything.. whatever it is, i should be happy that i did the right thing.. i guess.. and i think my story with you gonna end here.. it will be so hard for us to continue isn't it? anyway, i shall be happy that i got some memories of ours with me..
it actually takes me a lot of courage to do certain things.. i thought all it takes would be a little courage to step forward? (quote from karen) now i had already took the courage but why i didn't move forward and yet i'm feeling myself moving backward? or is it not just courage but the right timing is also important? i think i just haven't got the right time..

can my emotions stop playing catching? arghh!! now, if you were to come and comfort me, i think my emotions will stop running.. can lian ou ren come to my rescue? omg can anyone help?

2007-05-27T22:05:00.001+08:00

my story end today..

2007-05-26T22:26:00.000+08:00

third post of the day..

i'm bloody bored by the stay at home.. im not the type who will stay at home.. so i think it will be hard for me to do all the series at home during the holidays.. so i will be dead when sch reopen..

i find my post contradicting at times.. maybe because i'm feeling confuse and i dont know what to do.. arghh!! this feeling is so sucky..

2007-05-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

i feel the urge to tell you how i'm feeling right now.. should i just tell you and settle everything so that i do not need to feel so miserable anymore? should i just ignore all the consequences? what should i do? can anyone tell me?

2007-05-26T12:31:00.000+08:00

i want lian ou ren badly.. i really want it.. will god pls grant my wish.. i can give up any other things in my wishlist(other than doing well in 'O' level) but not it..

nothing can replace lian ou ren.. I WANT LIAN OU REN!!

2007-05-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

woke up at 6.45am today and so i cabbed to school.. what a waste of money.. as usual, many many periods of chinese and we got like 2 periods free and i slept again.. haha.. the sec 3 bazaar was a total sian-ness.. what's the point of the one hour break when there's nothing to shop or eat or play? met up with rs for lunch at mac after sch and headed home..

watch pirates of the caribbean: at world's end with bird bird.. hahahah the show was funny and of course nice.. it totally worth the money.. go watch it people..

and yes, june holidays starts and means i got to work my ass off during the holidays.. i better do all the whatever series okie.. looking forward to the netball camp at sentosa.. hopefully huda allows all the e-family to go so that we can treat it as a e-family outing as well..

2007-05-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

okie chinese chinese and more chinese.. today we got like 6 periods of MT and i'm like sleep for 3 periods.. so this whole week have been having so many periods of chinese lesson and i'm so bored to death by yin yong wen and zuo wen.. four more days to GCE 'O' level mother tongue.. all i want is a B3 and above so that i can drop that subject and concentrate on other subjects.. get over and done with it man.. shall pray hard that monday's paper gonna be easy..
report book gotten back and i'm not really happy with my performance..
english- C5
chinese- B4
amaths- A1
emaths- A1
chemistry- B4
physcis- C5
combined humanitites- C6

so L1R4 is like 15 and L1R5 is 21..
class position: 12/35 and level position: 14/121

seriously i want to get all the As and Bs for my 'O'.. i do not want any Cs in my result slip pls.. i'm gonna spend this june holidays wisely if not i will cry.. after june holidays will be the prelim and 'O' is on the way.. let's work my ass off during the june holidays..

2007-05-23T19:12:00.000+08:00

happy birthday bro!!

social etiquette was fun fun fun..
the two speakers were hilarious and interesting.. able to engage our attention.. had a five course meal and some jokes at the table.. xinn and me were the only girls sitting with russell, hafiz, jingkai, benchoo, benliu, sherwin, mengseng and geroge.. i think it's better to sit with them as there are more jokes, fun and of course they all were lame..
after that, went bowling and a game of pool with elicia, yukino, pris, karen, zhareena, jasshima, nabilah, faris and afiq..

lots of pictures today.. happy viewing!

2007-05-21T22:13:00.001+08:00

some sickening thing that happen that really make many people pissed off by that and i shall not mention anything here..

my feeling is totally in a mess and i seriously got no damn fucking ideas of what to do.. at this moment, i feel like saying everything out and at another moment, i feel that i shall keep everything all by myself.. WTF why am i feeling so confuse for no good reason?

back to school.. im still not in the mood to study at all.. feeling so slacky.. haiz and yet mother tongue paper is like in one week time.. OMFG

Social etiquette no need partner liao.. it's like so last min then they tell us this.. so we wasted our effort to look for partner..

to my hao buddy:
though we only know each other for a short period of four years, but i'm can assure you that we aren't any fair-weather friends.. i won't 袖手旁观 when you need my help.. you will always have my support and that's what friends are for isn't it? a friend in need is a friend indeed.. so don't worry yea.. be le guan dian.. whatever we go through together will just make our friendship stronger..

2007-05-20T19:55:00.001+08:00

headed to amk hub again with dy as he needs my help to choose a necklace for his sis's 21th bday.. he bought a SK necklace which cost about $100++ for his sis and that salesgirl even take me as his gf.. lol.. shop around amk hub and decided to go new york new york to eat.. our first time at new york new york was fun.. both of us ate $77.95 and we were both bloated.. plan to watch NEXT but when we went to sun plaza, there isn't this show.. slack at delifrance and wait for time to pass..

the menu

delicious food.. yummy!!

we share this 6 scoops ice cream..

trying to act cute.. omg

i'm so looking forward to wednesday social etiquette and everybody, my partner is NG JING KAI..

2007-05-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

went to town with xinn and eeqah to shop for SE clothes.. help xinn to choose her clothes and find my own top.. walking round far east so many timeS.. legs are jelly and tired now.. that's the consequences of not shopping often.. saw many ppl at far east and all were there for the same purpose.. i find it funny actually.. it's just SE and we all are so _______ (fill in the blank) that we purposely go look for clothes.. bought a top and a belt and i'm done for SE.. fun always started when we start camwhoring.. so much laughter in the train and ppl were just looking at us..

they guide me through my darkness..

2007-05-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

today is really slack.. whole day only got chinese lesson.. during amaths, we were doing some admin stuff then english was going through paper2.. ss and geog were free periods.. whoa sleep and chit chatting.. wahaha..

watch bridge to terabithia at cwp with bird bird.. nice show and towards the last 5mins of the show was really funny.. there was this 2 ladies coming in and sat down.. we were like saying they were early man.. lol anyway, enjoy..

2007-05-17T19:46:00.000+08:00

no matter how long i sleep, i still feel god damn tired during lesson time.. i have been sleeping during lesson for so many days and especially during phy.. i think is maybe because my body still can't adapt to the changes as i burn too much midnight oil during the exam period..
june holidays lessons timetable is out and my class has to go back for TWO weeks while others only one week.. anyway, CO is taking over after the june holidays and which means my class will have breathing difficulties(inside joke).. haiz i will miss mrs goh for sure.. i promise that i gonna work my ass off during the june holidays and not waste any of the days.. start my prelim revision and do all the series.. wahahaha.. hopefully i will be able to keep that promise..

my feelings for you is growing deeper and deeper each day.. i don't know if you have realise it but i'm just hoping that you will know one day.. loving you secretly is so painful and seriously, your PMS is affecting me.. really got no idea what you are thinking and emo-ness is getting over me.. feeling so sad for every moment and was hoping that you are the one who cheer me up and make me smile.. would you please come and make my day? i need you so badly and just can't stop myself from thinking of you..

2007-05-16T16:03:00.000+08:00

people around me know that i'm feeling very down recently and i really have to thank them for cheering me up and also be there for me.. especially dy, rs, xinn and eeqah.. i felt so touch when i read eeqah's post.. let me quote what she wrote..
"after all this 4 years going through all the torture of running and playing netball together, we became closer which i never can imagine how close we are now. all the boyfriends talks and shopping spree and the starbucks were simply awesome. i know i could not asked for more but i still want more!! thanks for everything and keep the smile on your face alright. don't bother too much about your surroundings. keep the positive thinking and lets work our ass hard for our very last stage of our secondary school journey. no matter what happens you always have my shoulder to cry on. ILY!!!"
isn't it touching? feel so glad that i have her by my side, listening to my rants and stuffs.. hope that our friendship will be everlasting..
quote from xinn's letter of appreciation..
"to my 'dearest' buddy. thank you for being there whenever i've met up with every ups and downs of my life. i appreciate you, for being my listening ears and 'encourage' me when i'm down. i am glad that i have you as my buddy, although we are inversely proportional, but this gives us the chance to help each other. thank yous(:"

thank dy, rs, xinn and eeqah, you guys really make my day and make me smile..

2007-05-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

it was raining so heavily in the morning.. i was trying to run to school hoping that i will be dry but the rain get bigger and bigger.. eventually, called eeqah for help.. was trying to meet her somewhere nearer to school so i was running across blocks and got myself really drenched.. socks and shoe were already soak with water.. when i finally met eeqah and esah, the rain stopped.. WTF okie.. whatever it is, i hate raining in the morning..

got back all the results.. fail english paper 1 and social studies.. was really happy with both my maths results.. A1 for both yea.. haha.. but as for phy, it was shit.. i'm starting to hate phy..

even though everything had been settled, the words that u said still leave a scar in my heart and u will never understand how much the words have an impact on me.. after all, i still felt threaten by u.. everybody is making me very confuse and i seriously feel so sick and tired of it.. u have become my phobia and u will only make matter worse by forcing me to do things that i don't agree.. one day, u will regret.. to those aunties, u better watch what u say as whatever u say, it going to make our relationship worse.. u guys are not helping at all..

2007-05-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

had our last motivational workshop today and we were playing the web-game again.. this time round, my class managed to bring 9 people over which is so wow.. i really appreciate the boys' effort and i know they are really tired after so many rounds of carrying people.. thank u boys.. after this game, i seriously love 4e1'07 so much as i can see some bond between us yea..
4e1'07 rocks

went to have dinner with dy after the workshop at sun plaza.. feeling so down and he never fail to make me laugh.. nobody will understand the pain that i'm going through now and i think none of u will be as miserable as me.. i really don't know how to describe my feelings and my thoughts.. i really hate going home now.. my phobia now is stepping into my house.. will anyone ever understand that kind of pain.. my heart hurts so much and this year mother's day really suck big time.. that will be the most memorable gift ever..
i hate this feeling!!

2007-05-13T16:11:00.000+08:00

okie i'm like can't blog for days due to some stupid problem with blogger.. got so much to say and yet i can't blog.. i shall cut short some of the things that i wanna say..

TUESDAY
can't complete emaths paper 2 though it was a 2 and a half paper.. lost 18 marks just like that.. my first time for not completing maths paper..

WEDNESDAY
i can't do binomial theorem.. the rest of it was still okie..

THURSDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! i'm 16 for goodness sake.. haha.. after chemistry paper 1, elicia, karen, wy, sx, yukino, pris and vichet gave me a BIG surprise.. while walking to the bus stop going to cwp burger king for breakfast, they suddenly "attacked" me with flour and whip cream..flour and whip cream were all over my body and i stink okie.. went to burger king and saw vichet sitting there and was kinda shock yea.. didn't expect him to come as he told me that he's busy in the morning.. after breakfast, they went to my house for the cake cutting session.. waited for me to bath first as they could not tolerate the smell from my body..had cake, fun and they left.. really appericate that.. thank you guys.. after they left, went to nap before heading to amk hub with eeqah.. bought 2 pumps and a shirt.. shop and took pictures.. had dinner with mum and aunties.. enjoyed myself the whole day..

FRIDAY
last paper of mid year exam.. hahaha already started to slack since monday..after phy paper 1, meet eeqah and went to my house to slack..i was sleeping while she was watching "step-up"..outing with E-family for my mini belated birthday celebration and this time short of two.. xinn and elah cannot make it.. went ice skating and we had so much fun yea.. i fell 4 times and my butt hurts.. went to LJS for lunch and got a mini cake from them.. headed to IMM and shop for hours.. took over hundred pictures and realised that we are so vain.. hahaha..

SATURADAY
a mini belated birthday celebration with dy, rs and mh.. planning to eat at sakura but when we went there, it was closed..a lady told us that it will open at 6pm.. so headed down to amk, planning to pool.. when we reached, it was almost 6 and so we just walk around amk hub and went back to tpy's sakura.. the most fucking thing was that sakura was full house.. i susgested eating pizza hut instead and the four of us really can eat.. we ate 4SOD, 2pizzas, 1hut's platter, 8drumlets and a baked rice each.. after all the food, went to cwp for spiderman 3.. tickets were selling fast and we were sitting at the front row for that 2hrs++ show.. reached home at about 3.40am due to some reasons.. was accompanied by dy and rs at northpt mac..thanks to them and dy never fail to make me laugh with all his crappiness..

special thanks to:(not in any order)
karen, elicia, wanyi, suxin, priscilla, yukino, vichet
chengning, jialei, pinxian, iris, claris
eeqah, esah
ivan, joanne
deyang, minghong, vincent and rs

thanks for all the wishes
thanks for making my birthday a wonderful and memorable one..

2007-05-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

okie people, today is the day when i'm suppose to sleep early as tmr is emaths paper 2.. unfortunately, i'm still awake now.. phy paper today is bloody difficult pls.. i'm going to fail this paper while amaths was pretty easy other than the same careless mistake that i make for emaths.. got so freak out when i make the mistake twice for both e and a maths.. damnit.. went home right after exam and had a good nap before heading to SGH to visit grandma.. she's already in the hospital for about a week and today then i visit her.. guilty* she look better and still can joke and chat with us.. stay there for like 4hrs then went to have dinner with all my uncles and aunties.. reached home at about 12am.. i'm tired now, really tired..
off to lala land..

4 more papers to go.. jia you jol!! i can start to feel the feeling of enjoying..

2007-05-07T01:42:00.000+08:00

okie people, look at the time now.. i'm like finally done with my revision after flipping so many pages.. i'm done as in i finished reading through all of them but yet to memorise.. i think most of the people are already in their lala land while i'm still staying up, trying to memorise all the craps.. i miss lala land so much yea.. seriously regretted for late revision or you can say last minute revision.. holly god!! after this week, i think i'll be a panda.. omg!!

i think i will be cuter than it.. lol

2007-05-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

people, people, people.. god, god, god.. pls help me.. arghh i think i'm going mad soon.. phy and amaths are driving me crazy.. look at the time now.. i havent even completed any one of them and still got many more chapters to go yea.. i need more time.. 24hrs is not enough for me..
wo yao feng diao le..

HELP ME!!

2007-05-06T17:13:00.000+08:00

early in the morning went library with birdbird to study.. had mac breakfast and that's so awesome okie.. don't make wild guesses.. i mean the breakfast was awesome.. though we went at 10, which is exactly the time that the library open, but we still didn't manage to get ourselves a table.. so as usual, we end up at the cafe with a small round table.. today just make me realise how kiasu singaporeans are.. you know once the shutter of the library opens, or should i say half open, everyone was like running and rushing in just to get themselves a table.. omg man that was like so wa biang!!
we studied for like 5hrs and headed home after that because he wants to sleep and he can no longer concentrate anymore.. went home and had lunch with mum and start to slack again..

i miss all the slacking on sunday with eeqah at starbucks.. i want all my sleeping and slacking time back so badly..

2007-05-06T02:17:00.000+08:00

hey people, i'm so happy and confuse now.. but more of happy.. after such a long time, it's finally back.. hahaha i'm not going to say what.. i'm the happiest girl in the world now.. yeah!! whoa i think it will make my dream a sweet one..

i'm exultant...

2007-05-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

had been slacking the whole day man.. woke up at 12+, eat and went back to sleep again.. really freaking tired okie.. so woke up at about 5+ and watch television.. went to turf city to eat lust now to celebrate aunty birthday.. half a cup of tiger beer for me yea.. haha.. did u realise that all i do is eat and sleep? omg i'm going to gain weight if this goes on.. i just hate staying at home yea..

grandma has been admitted to hospital few days ago and i did not visit her at all.. really trying to find some time to visit her.. maybe after my exam.. i think i'm the only one in the family who did not visit her..haiz..

change of skin again.. thanks to eeqah who help me ytd till midnight.. gonna burn midnight oil again today to study amaths so that tmr can study phy yea.. sleepless night again jol.. haiz..

2007-05-04T18:36:00.000+08:00

hey people, i took the risk.. i only studied development and manufacturing for today's geography paper and you know what? i choose to do the tourism question and i seriously feel so amazing and surprise about it.. i didn't even take a glance at the notes on tourism and i actually choose to do the question today.. omg but actually i'm was being force larh as the development question is really hard..
chemistry paper was manageable if people study and know the facts well.. feel so much relax now as combined humanities paper is over.. however, there are still lots of other paper waiting for me.. finally can get back some of my sleep during the weekends and not forgetting to study for physics and amaths..

mum was rather busy and asking me to buy all the groceries has become her habit.. i have been visiting NTUC fairprice so many times a week yea.. anyway, i enjoy it as i love shopping for food okie.. it's so fun shopping for all the food.. i soon will become a huang lian po yea..

your action really irritates me okie.. i seriously have no idea whether whatever you are doing is on purpose? is there such coincidence in the world or are you really avoiding? you don't have to do such things pls.. i find it more and more hard to believe that you are this type of person.. pls don't spoil the perfect image of you in my heart.. i choose to believe that you are not like this and can you prove it to me instead of making matter worse? feeling terribly bad..

2007-05-03T19:54:00.000+08:00

emaths paper 1 suck okie.. i'm like already know i had lost 9marks.. i totally don't know how to do the cyclic quad and the factorise question.. in addition, i make a damn silly mistake.. haiz.. but anyway, no point bother over it as i can't do anything other than doing well in paper 2 yea..
i finally done my chemistry revision after so many days and i still got geography to go.. this morning was indeed funny.. i thought of burning midnight oil but at 1+ i fell asleep.. i planned to wake up at 4am to continue.. though i can wake up but nothing goes in my brain so i went to bed again.. haha this type of studying style doesn't work for me yea..
should i like take a risk for tmr geography paper? tourism or development? agriculture or manufacturing? i seriously don't wanna fail my humanities as i really wanted to make AK shut his ass mouth up.. but tourism and agriculture are 2 HUGE topics and which means i got hell lots of things to memorise.. oh god.. should i? arghh!!

i seriously sense that we both are drifting further and further apart.. i no longer feel the same way as before.. should i just accept the facts and just shut up from now on? i think the worse has come without me knowing it.. i hate this okie..
even it is just looking at your back, it makes me smile unknowingly.. i want all this to come to an end.. i'm only a friend to you..